Heartblossoms

Dearest David,

this is how it feels when we hug..  i felt the stars all around us. this is how it felt when we cuddled at the end of the day - the stars surround us, my heartrate slows, my breathing settles and i am at peace. we are beyond time as long as we hug, as long as we are close i feel our energies intermingling in a quiet softness and oneness with all there is, in strength and protection.. in being there for each other as our defense in all the crap that goes on in this world, we are each other's shield, tower and sword -- all my pain slips away, all my stressors of the day are gone, i am only in this moment with you, listening to your heart, and your breath, feeling how our bodies blend together to a point where i don't know where yours ends and mine begins ---    i am so, so sorry you don't feel this, for it is a truly wonderful feeling, of connectedness and peace and all is right in the world -- i wish i had the way to share this with you so you would feel it, and be healed from all the pain you have suffered ---

 in addition, i am so sorry if  you knowing this is what i feel offends you, or makes you feel defensive, pressured or any negative feeling whatsoever, for that is not my intention in telling you.....

 i only wish you could know the happiness and gratefulness that i knew... 

that is all. 

no strings, no demands, no bullshit.

people cannot be your friend and care for you if you put the barriers up and push them away

i know how much you hurt, i wish you could see this -- i wish you could see all the compassion i have for your pain, for it is my pain also -- we have shared many -- i wish you could see