Frida: She knew

“I love you more than my own skin and even though you don’t love me the same way, you love me anyways, don’t you? And if you don’t, I’ll always have the hope that you do, and i’m satisfied with that. Love me a little. I adore you.” 
― Frida Kahlo

You hold me

You hold me, you make me eternal
in your artist's hands

a creation withstanding the tests of time
beginning to see

Heartblossoms

Dearest David,

this is how it feels when we hug..  i felt the stars all around us. this is how it felt when we cuddled at the end of the day - the stars surround us, my heartrate slows, my breathing settles and i am at peace. we are beyond time as long as we hug, as long as we are close i feel our energies intermingling in a quiet softness and oneness with all there is, in strength and protection.. in being there for each other as our defense in all the crap that goes on in this world, we are each other's shield, tower and sword -- all my pain slips away, all my stressors of the day are gone, i am only in this moment with you, listening to your heart, and your breath, feeling how our bodies blend together to a point where i don't know where yours ends and mine begins ---    i am so, so sorry you don't feel this, for it is a truly wonderful feeling, of connectedness and peace and all is right in the world -- i wish i had the way to share this with you so you would feel it, and be healed from all the pain you have suffered ---

 in addition, i am so sorry if  you knowing this is what i feel offends you, or makes you feel defensive, pressured or any negative feeling whatsoever, for that is not my intention in telling you.....

 i only wish you could know the happiness and gratefulness that i knew... 

that is all. 

no strings, no demands, no bullshit.

people cannot be your friend and care for you if you put the barriers up and push them away

i know how much you hurt, i wish you could see this -- i wish you could see all the compassion i have for your pain, for it is my pain also -- we have shared many -- i wish you could see 

 

i remember

i remember...

i remember being jealous of the wind
as i walked beside you in the city
the wind tossed and touseled your hair
i wanted to be the wind..

When you kiss me

you send a bolt of fiery passionate lightning
to my very core
which
ignites my desire

where my passion swells
and floods
where kundalini rises

when spiralling stars are encircling me
encircling you
encircling me

encircling us
encircling we

...

please kiss me again

a message in the breeze

Let this dance be the breeze
which slides through your frightened fingertips,
caressing your heart on its way to calm your soul

My breath was in you all along,
welcoming me home

♥ Heart Highlights ♥
“Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: "What! You too? I thought I was the only one.”

― C.S. Lewis


wanted to send you this.....and ...ummmm.....was so happy to actually chat with you the other night that i cried.....so that is my Hel of having too many feelings, and feeling things so deeply... my own personal Hel on Earth which so many people don't understand, and causes people to not want to spend time with me, and i felt it was happenning again ...and i will never learn the lesson! And even writing this, maybe its too much to say...but you forgive me, and for that i am thankful